Depression

God, I have this feeling of doom hanging around. I can't shake it, it won't leave me.

I am scrubbing toilets tonight and putting laundry up. It seems that you could say that life itself is a series of chores.

Trying to get through the day is becoming harder and harder. I am increasingly paranoid but the truth is it may not be paranoia after all. Chris and my mom feel the same way I do. All three of us believe that changes are coming within the corporation and that the new changes will be more bad than good. I know what you are going to say, "corporations are all about change, live with it." Yeah, yeah, yeah but you really don't understand. I truly want to be a good employee but when you feel that your job is threatened at every moment and that the truth is that I really am expendable. Shit.

There are people in this world that will do their best to break you if for any other reason than to know that they can. I want away from this. I want to be free from politics and scrutiny.

All I really want to do is be a teacher and make a difference in this world. If I must deal with this shit for four more years than I will. It "MUST" be worth it, I have to believe that it will be worth it.

That is it.

Bye! Night.