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Today was really long. I woke up later than I wanted to and then it seemed like the whole day I was playing catch up. Nothing that I did today went right. Just to let you know I am about to take a baseball bat to that FUCKING fax machine.

I have become paranoid that my boss wants to fire me. Maybe I have good reason to think that? Maybe I need a vacation?

My chest and back hurt so bad that I wish I could tear my skin off. Just by walking outside in the heat this afternoon causes my skin to burn and I wasn't even directly in sun light. Chris put burn ointment on me, it helped a little but not enough.

I looked for clothes on line for Lauren today. I was hoping to find some good deals which I did for her clothes but Lauren persists on $50.00 shoes from Sketchers. I try to tell her that shoes are shoes and it doesn't matter but then I remember being a kid and wanting what every one else had just so I would fit in. So, I guess I am going to get her the Sketchers that light up.

New shirt from Macy's $35.00
New Backpack from Fast Forward $109.99
"New" torn faded jeans from Journeys $75.00
Sketchers sneakers that light up $50.00

Making sure that your kid has no reason to to say to her therapist that you never bought her what she wanted for back to school.... PRICELESS!

For everything else there is MAJOR DEBT CARD.

:)

Sorry, I just needed to say that.

My little kitten is getting so much bigger. She is now roughly three months old and she has added so much to the house. She loves to play and just watch the world around her. It's almost like having a kid in the house because you are able to watch her see things for the first time.

Today I was taking a bath after work and she jumped up on the tub to watch me. At first I was thinking she was a perv but then she started splashing at the water and then trying to slap at my hand as I went to pet her. I scared her so bad that she fell backward and went falling to the ground. I almost laughed but then I thought that may be a little mean.

Well, once again my mother called me to say that my "CRAZY" sister called. She claims that she wants her children back? WTF? Okay, she has the first child when she is 17, she meets someone else and has another kid by 19. She leaves those two kids and then goes on to someone else. She then has three kids with someone else and she splits. She recently had an abortion earlier this year. That would have been child # 6. What the hell is she thinking? There are some women that should be FUCKING sterilized and she happens to be one of them. If I have my way I will never see that whore again.

Mothers are strange things. I can read my mother very well. I also know that my mother has favorites. She pretends that she doesn't but she does. Just today I told mom about how I finished registering for school and that I have a four year plan yadda, yadda, yadda and my mother beams with pride about how my sister has a basement in her house. She asks me, don't you think that's neat? I could win the Pulitzer prize and my sister could win two dollars off a scratch off and guess what she would talk about? Am I jealous? Yeah, I guess I am a little jealous? Nothing is ever good enough.

God, I want to get out of this bad mood. I want to stop being negative.

So, I guess that is it for tonight. I feel really lonely because no one has sent me any comments on my blogs. Maybe I will stay lonely out here in Web world?

Good night. Sweet Dreams.