So, here I am. I am just a shadow of who I used to be. I no longer feel like a separate person but am consumed by the many roles that I must play. Parent, child, friend, sister, wife; these are the labels that I have been branded with and I am sure there are a few that I have missed but am not too eager to analyze today. I have lost sight of what I could and should have been. Not only have I lost sight but I just don’t think I care anymore. I have come to a cross roads in my life. Do I keep trying to be everything that everyone wants? I could just say to hell with it, right? Unfortunately; I just can’t do that. I have created a false life for myself. I have been trying to protect myself from so much hurt; physically and emotionally. I just don’t feel anything at all anymore. I do not feel love, anger, sadness, rejection, empathy, sympathy. Everything is gone and this is all that is left. I have only myself to blame for this. No one is going to save me. No one will ever save me.
~ Stacy
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